Reading Zen Questions and I’m halfway through. Finding myself confused and at the same time everything makes sense. There is a sense that it all matters for naught and that the whole pretense is to drop the pretense leading to the reading at the same time.
Sit, remain sitting. Listen and forget your thoughts or more observe without interaction.
Waiting to experience the moment of clarity, but not striving for it and when it comes to not focus on it.
This idea of living to live and yet not focusing on it, but striving for it. the idea of flow that we all strive for in simply staying present. all striving for the time for flow, yet not being able to strive for it to achieve it.
I find aspects of serendipity entering my life, but making sure to only recognize them and not entertain them yet accept them as the truth or universe speaking to me like a fishing line bobber springing to the top of stormy water only to be lost again in the turbulent sea that it exists within. knowing that he goal is to steady the mind where that bobber of truth stay in sight. only to be accomplished in the stillness of mind one strives for without striving. finding the wu wei in every day.